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[May. 21st, 2007|12:13 pm]
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[sounds like |tim hecker - i'm transmitting tonight]

Half the days I wish I had been one of those girls that was just content enough to find some guy to stick it in me, and call it a day. Pop out some brats with popsicle-stained mouths in a small-named town, work under fluorescent lights among partitions sitting on my ass and changing into gym shoes to walk out to my car and drive it economically back to a home to a house that smelled like a crock-pot. I'd use my tea bags twice and have lots of processed foods. Then I could celebrate holidays with said family, go on vacations in large recreational vehicles, watch them all grow up, and then die quietly with nothing much having ever really happened. Half the time I wish I was someone content with that. Mostly though, I'm shattered like colors into my life, slitting my eyes proportionally with my wry smile-spread. And the colors wave, and my laugh tries, and my legs fold and I'm always always alone and someone sticking it in me is entirely fiction but would be enough for seconds until I can straighten my eyes and think again, about cooler things to touch, and changing. Days are colored banners waving and nights are like stars/gems falling from the folds of my skirt. And for a long time that was enough, and for a long time it has been more and more alone, so that only alone is left ringing.
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Let me just say that in the last year my f-list has undergone many changes
and as it stands, i adore it. Every day i read through it is a new and inspiring feast for the eyes and brain. I'm very grateful.











































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[User Picture]From: handstil
2007-05-21 07:47 pm (UTC)
Oh my god, carrot chair.
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[User Picture]From: transcribe
2007-05-21 07:49 pm (UTC)
yep. my friend jen in the pic. built it.

hello?!? Easter Bunny throne!!!
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[User Picture]From: le_cloitre
2007-05-21 08:21 pm (UTC)
i love reading you.

the photos tell an interesting story.

i like the gent in the hat, your silver rims.
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[User Picture]From: transcribe
2007-05-22 08:15 am (UTC)
x.
o.
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[User Picture]From: cinemama
2007-05-21 08:39 pm (UTC)
My favorite is clearly the one with the lucite frames.
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[User Picture]From: aomouse
2007-05-21 10:28 pm (UTC)
God, I wish I could write one sentence as well as Transcribe.
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[User Picture]From: transcribe
2007-05-22 08:17 am (UTC)
God I wish I were ever as kind or as interesting as a.o. mouse.

xo.
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[User Picture]From: jnce
2007-05-21 10:52 pm (UTC)
thanks, i'm glad i made the friends cut
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[User Picture]From: transcribe
2007-05-22 08:17 am (UTC)
there was never a question.
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[User Picture]From: wisdom_seeker
2007-05-21 10:57 pm (UTC)
I adore you, too, Sweetie! I'm sorry I've been so absent lately. Still working on finding the right balance...
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[User Picture]From: transcribe
2007-05-22 08:17 am (UTC)
understandable.
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[User Picture]From: transcribe
2007-05-22 08:07 am (UTC)
he should! i work wednesday!
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[User Picture]From: flowerfalls
2007-05-22 08:50 am (UTC)
i'm happy i'm on your friend list. if jsut for this post!
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[User Picture]From: transcribe
2007-05-22 05:28 pm (UTC)
shucks.

thanks.
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[User Picture]From: wolffire
2007-05-22 03:32 pm (UTC)
CARROT CHAIR!

I need to have more fun like that. And, if we don't move to Italy next, Portland is in the top position.

But, um, ya know, since we moved last year...well, we ain't going anywhere for a little while.
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